"My heart knows that we shall meet again some sweet day
And oh, I know just by knowing you I was blessed.
Yes I was truly blessed.
So why, tell me why the good die young my old friend.
A star that is what you are in my darkest night
Be always by my side"
These lines are lyrics from a song called Heaven by Hayley Westenra.
This week has been rough. I am in a situation that I never expected to be in, well not at the age of 18 anyway. Having amazing friends and family around me right now is such a blessing. Being able to be home is such a blessing. But the best blessing of all is knowing that my dad is in a better place and that I will be with him again someday. That has brought such comfort to me this week. It has made me realize how blessed I am to know where I am going when I die. There are so many people out there in the world who have no idea of what is beyond life. I think life would suck if you had the view that once a person dies they just cease to exist and become dirt. Or even believing that a person comes back after death as something that reflects their life. In both of these cases, death is dreaded. But as Christians, we have a hope that surpasses all worry or concern about death. Once we die, we have the opportunity to be with the One who made us, the One who created each part of us and our lives. That is so amazing! Clearly I would be much happier if dad was just at work and would be home soon, but knowing that he is in heaven is a pretty wonderful thought.
I am just so completely in awe of God right now! He has given me this hope, this peace. Yes, God threw this curveball to me, but He is there to get me through. Knowing that I am not alone is so great. God is good, ALL the time. It has taken me a few days to see this, but I do see it. I am not just saying it, I know it. Sure, my emotions are going to change and I am going to doubt this. But the truth of it never changes.
