something to think about.

my friend wrote this and i absolutely LOVE it! the last two lines are something that are now engraved in my heart and mind. our lesson at youth group was about love and was just like what the chapel speaker said last week. as Christians, all of our good works and stuff are pointless if its not done in LOVE. i love how this poem shows what real love is, not something we feel, but a dedication. so yeah.

God of Power
God is He
The God who will reign
For eternity

The winds blow strong
The oceans roar
The stars shed light
While eagles soar

The roses bloom
Their beauty display
The birds sing for joy
While to You, Lord, pray

"Who am I
That You remember me?
'Twas Your Son that died
Upon the tree"

"My child, My child"
Said a Voice from above
"The reason I died
Was to demonstrate Love"

"I chose to die
That you might live
The man might learn
To love and forgive"

"I set an example
Of love and devotion
That man might see
True love's not emotion"

-DAVID LOSSING

i am...

gonna skip college (kinda) and go join the NAVY!!!!!! well at the moment, thats something i am contemplating. :]

new love

i am IN LOVE with..... Criminal Minds. yes, its true. it is the most amazing show in the world! intense too! of course, it cant compete with one tree hill, but for like a "serious" show... its the best!!!!

this song: Lost, by Faith Hill. I absolutely LOVE it! go youtube it!

Is it obvious to you
When you walk into a room
Your face is all I see
And my heart races so fast
I never knew a rush to feel like that
Everytime you're touching me

I never did believe in anything
I couldn't hold between my fingers
But the way you make me feel
It's just so real the way it lingers

I get lost inside your stare
Lost when you're not there
And everything I have
Doesn't mean a thing if it's without you
If it's a dream
Don't wake me up
I'll scream if this isn't love
If bein' lost means never knowin' how it feels without you
I wanna stay lost forever
I wanna stay lost forever.. with you.

No this feelin' doesn't end
It's with me everywhere I am
Hope it never goes away
It's like defying gravity
I'm losing all control in bein' free
And I always wanna stay

I never thought that I'd let go long enough
To fall for someone deeply
Who had the power to erase my fears
And find me so completely

I get lost inside your stare
Lost when you're not there
And everything I have
Doesn't mean a thing if it's without you
If it's a dream
Don't wake me up
I'll scream if this isn't love
If bein' lost means never knowin' how it feels without you
I wanna stay lost..

Don't tell me where we're goin'
I don't wanna know
I like the mystery
I can't believe we've come this far
So far away from where we started off
You found me when I wasn't lookin'
You found me..

And now I'm lost inside your stare
Lost when you're not there
And everything I have
Doesn't mean a thing if it's without you
Without you..
If it's a dream
Don't wake me up
I'll scream if this isn't love
If bein' lost means never knowin' how it feels without you
Yeah..
If bein' lost means never knowin' how it feels without you
Oh..
If bein' lost means that I'm never gonna be without you..
I wanna stay lost forever..
I wanna stay lost forever
..With you.

everything i have doesnt mean a thing if its without you....

Its definitely time for an update!!!!!! So yeah, school has been pretty good. Its chill, not super stressful, yet! I have had a lot of hw the last 2-3 nights but I dealt with it and now I feel so much better for doing it! :]

today was stinkinn hot!!! 6th period suuuucks! mr becher's class is so hot! its nasty! :/

ughh... its about time for me to start filling out college apps which im cool with. the thing im hating at the moment, is the fact that I am actually gonna have to choose which one i wanna go to. i guess i do have a bit of time before i have to do that, but i am really scared about it! cant i just make up my own college and place it wherever i flippin want!!!!?!??!!?!! i am for sure gonna be praying a lot between now and whenever the decision has to be made! :[

i know this was a pretty boring update, but my life is pretty non-eventful right now.

im in a thinking mood. i hate that. things go around in my head and then i cant focus on anything. then i feel blah because i never think about stuff that comes out with a good outcome. oh well....its life.

V <3 :]

camp pendleton

IS HUGE!!!!!!!!!! I always thought it was just boring brown hills that ran down the side of the freeway. BUT its like its own city! It has houses and trees like a little city and it has a supermarket, dvd rentals, subway, church's chicken, and a ton of stuff! It took us 20 minutes to get from the gate to where we needed to be, and then like 35 to keep going and get out again!!! Thats like an hour just to get from one side to the other!!!

But yeah, we picked up my friend and his buddy that had to be with him at all times, then we drove into Oceanside and ate at an amazing place! The guys wanted some GOOD food so we went to a chinese buffet so that they could eat as much as they wanted! It was amazing food! I have never had chinese food like that! Mmmmmm! It was yuuuummmyy!!! So it was really cool to hang out with Ben and talk a bit. Unfortunately, we didn't have much time because we got there around 2:45 and they had to be back on duty at 6:00. But it was pretty cool to see him again.

My day was fun! And I got most of my homework done!! :]

escape

AHHHHHH! I totally just spent like 3 freakinn hours on the dumb AP Gov review guide. Oh well, its done! :]

So I have been wanting to post since like monday. So now everything is gonna come out.

It's definitely cliche but lately, everything in my life has been screaming "Life is too short". I watch One Tree Hill and two episodes ago, the star player on the basketball team, Q, walked into a gas station and the "attendant" just stood there staring at him. Then Q glanced over to the bak of the store, and there was a dead man lying on the ground, covered in blood. Q turned around to walk out, and as he did, the "attendant" pulled out a gun and shot him. He was 17, he had his whole life ahead of him, but because he was in the wrong place, at the wrong time, he got killed. Yeah I know it is only a TV show, but stuff like that does happen. In school shootings like Columbine, or in gang-related shootings. It happens. So then last night at youth group, the main point of the lesson was about salvation, because we had some new people. My youth pastor said something along the lives of, we think we might have our whole lives ahead of us and that we can accept Christ when we are old and are done having fun, but we don't know how much time we have. That really got to me, not the accepting Christ part, but the fact that I could die tomorrow. Then this morning in chapel, Miss Admiraal talked about perception and reality, and that what people see us as should be the real us. My conclusion: I don't know if I am going to wake up tomorrow so I need to make sure that people get to know the real me, the me that loves God and has dedicated her life to God, and not someone who is a Christian by name only. My life is in God's hands, whatever happens, happens. I want to live for Him and make it obvious to everyone that I have put all of my trust in Him.

One of my friends is my main role model at the moment. Her family moved to the U.S 2 (?) years ago and right now, she does not have a visa and is here illegally. Her parents haven't applied for another one. I would expect her to freak out and be extremely concerned about leaving, I know I would. But she trusts God 100%. She told me that she doesn't want to go back because God has/and is doing amazing things in her life and she doesn't want to leave that. But she knows that God's will might be for her to go back and spread the Gospel in her home-country. She is truly willing to go wherever He wants to take her. The thing that encourages me the most is that she has only been a Christian for a little over a year but her faith is so strong. I look up to her and pray that I can have faith like her and live the rest of my life, however long or short, for Christ like she has.

timothy hamish norman

Okay so I decided that I needed to post about some amazing people in my life. I'll do it randomly, probably every couple of weeks. The first is: Tim!!!!

One of my BEST friends! He is awesome! We have had so many good times together! I think the hardest thing about moving here was definitely leaving him. We are so close. I am pretty sure that no matter where we go in life, we will always be best friends! I mean, we have managed it living half way across the WORLD from each other already. But yeah, I know that I can talk to him about ANYTHING! He is a great advice-giver and someone I trust a lot. Our history goes WAY back! We have pretty much grown up together. His nana was my neighbor and he was always there! We did everything together! We are pretty much siblings, we spent so much time at each others house that it was like we had 2 (3 including nana's) homes. We got in trouble a few times (just a few) but it was still fun! We had a lot of good times when we had water fights, jumped on trampolines, PLAYSTATION (pretty sure that we had a ton of fun doing that for hours and hours!!!!!!!), eating ice cubes, and all that stuff. I have almost NO childhood memories that do nit include Tim. Even now, when we are so far away, we still have fun, even though its not like when we were kids. Seeing him in NZ was amazing. We have both grown up SO much! These past two years are the longest time that we have ever been apart, in our WHOLE lives! We were born 10 months apart, and i know that we were "introduced" pretty soon after i was born. So yeah, thats my post about Tim! I'll try and post pics of us gradually growing up.

my chains are gone

ive been set free. my God, my Savior has ransomed me. amazing grace.

i was just listening to that so yah. my week has been pretty chill. nothin too exciting. homework hasnt been too bad. im actually enjoying school right now. chapel was ehh, but i was dying inside (from laughter of course), bcoz that pool man song, yeah pretty much describes my friend. it was pretty funny. idk why im typin like this....i guess im feelin a lil lazy! l0l. but yeah. i have to be at school at 7 tomorrow which isnt too good, but its watevr. itll b okay. the weekend is so close i can feel it! :P yay! sleep innn! im sorry that this has absolutely no structure. im just typing my feelings. and there are a lot of them. so i absolutely LOVE chelsee! she made my day today! ap gov was boringg. l0l. duh! jk. but i have to say, i liked it more than bible. that was borrrrrning today. i mean the convos were funny but watchin a movie...in the dark....while being tired, yeah not so much! i really dont like where we are parking at school. its on the speed bump, there are always cars parked along the islands, and its just not fun to pull out of. but w/e ill just move. yesterday, i felt like a retard, i pulled up the shade thing in mr bechers class, except i kinda let go and it went SWOOOSH all the way up. so yah. im annoyed about wilderness challenge. dumbb dates. im feelin music right now. im in the mood for ittt. :] okay well if you got this far, then i will congratulate you and stop here. ohh... no i wont. not yet. soon. youth group started on tuesday. same old people, one new girl, but she comes to church so i know her. same old dumbb kids..jk i love them. but yeah. it gives me something "fun" to do in my weeek. so yep. im done.

outt.

bonfire

Yesterday was a pretty cool day. I watched the Incredibles for the first time, and loved it. I did homework and chilled. At 3:00, we picked up my friend and drove to Huntington Beach. It took us like an hour because I did not know what part of the beach the bonfire was at. (The bonfire was for our church's "association" but pretty much the camp people) But, we got there eventually.

My parents dropped us off and we found a group who we were gonna "join" for the afternoon/night. We went down to the water, I got my legs wet but I didn't go in. Then I talked to one of my friends for a while. I said hi to everyone. I saw someone that I REALLY wanted to talk to, but then we had to do like a devotion thing and sing, so we had to sit down. He was across the "circle" from me so I couldn't exactly go talk to him. Then, I got distracted playing volleyball, and watching the sunset. Before I knew it, it was dark and couldn't see anyone, so I didn't get a chance to talk to him.

But yeah, we cooked hot dogs and stuff. Then we made smores. I saw some people that I really wanted to so I was stoked! My friend had told me about an hour before the bonfire that he was bringing someone special but wouldn't tell me who. It turned out to be someone from Riverside who was supposed to be gone for 3 months (including right now). He is the one who keeps me on track with my "smiling" goal. So I was really happy to see him.

Some of those people just make me SO happy! They don't even have to do anything, just being around them makes me so excited and happy! It seriously felt like I was in a huge family there! At like 7:30, my friends who we joined had to leave, so I was kinda nervous coz I didn't really feel like finding someone else to hang out with. So I just stood by the fire pit with the camp marshall and his family. Then another guy, who I saw at camp, but never actually officially met, came and we talked for a while. Then some other people joined us. It was pretty fun! But yeah, standing by the fire made me pretty warm, then when I said goodbye to people, who were "lacking clothing" and standing no where near the fire, they were like, woah you are warm! It was pretty funny. So yeah, I had an amazing time and saw some amazing people! :]

grrrrr

I am going to start this post with a couple of complaints, but then it will get better!

1. why IN THE WORLD do FRESHMAN and people OTHER THAN SENIORS get lockers in the SENIOR HALL?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!!? we have worked hard to become seniors and get the PRIVILEGE of having our lockers in a hallway of our own! they dont deserve to be in OUR hall!!! GRRRRRRR. im sorry but that just bugs the crap out of me!!!!!

2. so mr rhodes has been talking about our senior service hours. i asked him today if going to El Salvador would count for the 10 hours. he asked me when i was going and i said the date, then he said, oh well it will count for your SECOND 5 HOURS but not the freakkin FIRST 5 HOURS because the due date for those is in october. to me, that makes NO sense at all! I mean yeah, okay if i was going to do a day trip to mexico and want it to count for my 10 hours, i could understand them saying it will only count for half, but seriously, i am going for a whole freakin WEEK!!!! gahhhh. that is so dumb. im gonna try and make it count coz i think that is the most retarded thing i have ever heard!

okay, well thats my ughhhhs out of the way! im liking school so far. i have quite a bit of homework but watev. so yeah. tomorrow i am going to a bonfire! i am not really excited about it, but i do wanna see my friends. :] ummm.... i dont really wanna post about anything "serious" right now so i shall wait for another day.

last first day of high school

So I was pretty nervous about how today would be. It went really good, though! I had a lot of fun! I'll break down my day a little bit:

Creative Writing: interesting. i think it will be fun! and pretty easy! Small class! :]

Math: Like usual, none of my close friends in that class, but its math, it doesn't matter. Big class :/

Bible: Thats gonna be fun!

LCB: That is so far, my favorite class. It REALLY made me think today, in a good way! HUGE CLASS!!!! not so happy about that but I have friends so its all good!

Psychology: Me gusta. Didn't do much. Some cool people.

English: I love english but i'm not super happy about the people in my class this semester. I don't really have any close friends. BUT I do have Alicia!! :] That made it better! But yeah, not feelin it so far.

AP Gov: Honestly, I really like it at the moment! Im sure that my opinion will change. Haha. The class is small and there are some awesome people in it! :]

end of summer

So the end of summer is here! I am now in my last few hours of freedom before school starts! Going back to school is never really a thing I look forward to, this year is no exception. BUT it is our SENIOR YEAR! That definitely makes the "back-to-school" thing a bit more hopeful! I am excited for this year, it will be so much fun! The homework I am not excited about, but seeing my friends EVERYDAY, thats something im definitely looking forward to!

I finished the 4th Traveling Pants book on sunday and then I decided to re-read all four of them. I am almost done with the first one and there are quotes before every chapter, I like these ones:

-The problem is not the problem. The problem is your attitude about the problem.

-Before you criticize someone, you should walk a mile in their shoes. That way, when you criticize them, you are a mile away from them, and you have their shoes.

I hope everyone has an awesome first day of school! :]