Trust

"It is a glorious thing to know that your Father God makes no mistakes in directing or permitting that which crosses the path of your life. It is the glory of God to conceal a matter. It is our glory to trust Him, no matter what"  -Joni Eareckson Tada


Trusting God is definitely easier said than done. It is something I struggle with. All the time! But when I think about who God is and who we as humans are in comparison, trusting God is by far the wisest thing to do. He knows, He has planned, He is in control of my life. Thinking about this really humbles me and makes me realize that I am tiny, helpless and by no means equipped to plan my own life. Thankfully God is the opposite.

While I can only see a very small part of the picture, God has the whole picture laid out in front of Him.   Knowing all of this doesn't make trusting God a walk in the park but it sure makes me realize that I am an idiot for not trusting Him!

I don't know what will happen in my life but God does. Thats pretty great!

Revive. Restore. Resuscitate.

After 14 months of nothing, I am finally posting! My hope is that I will be more consistent with blogging and not repeat these year-long absences!

For my first post, I will post something I wrote a few weeks ago. It is something that God has continually been nudging me about this summer. I know this is not the first and it is definitely not the last of my posts about God's love. So here it is.


Sometimes you just need a reminder. This is one of those times. Nothing I am saying is new but God has placed it on my heart as something I have been forgetting.

Brennan Manning’s book, The Furious Longing of God, has really made me think about how much God loves me. I am not done with the book but even in the few pages I have read I am realizing that my view of God’s love is lacking. Seriously lacking. The whole idea that God chooses to love me blows my mind. All of my life God has been reaching out to me. Providing all I need to see Him. And even though I did eventually turn around and receive that embrace, I really don’t take the time to think about how crazy that is. I have done nothing. Nothing right, nothing worthy. But everything wrong. Yet like a perfect father, He waits and waits and waits for me to run to Him.

Manning’s emphasis on Abba is not new to me, but it is making a new impact on me. I get the chills when I think about God as a Daddy figure instead of the God I often picture as being far off and distant. It is not easy to mesh the two extremes that God is. He is so close and so intimate, yet He is also so transcendent, omnipotent, and omniscient. But really, how cool is that? God is so much more than my human mind will ever be able to comprehend on this side of Eternity.

I want to live a life that is Abba centered. I want that intimate relationship with God that allows me to come to Him in prayer as a child. I forget that I do not need big words or certain words. I want to read my Bible as a letter from my Father. I want to be in complete awe of God, but in a more personal way than ever before. I want to cherish the time I spend with Him and make a point to spend more time with Him!
I long for the day when my mind is made perfect and I can comprehend the mysteries of my Saviour. Obviously heaven is going to be the most amazing place but it is so cool to know that all will be right. Whether I still have questions to ask God or not, I will be at peace and there will be no uncertainty or fear.

My God loves me. My Heavenly Father loves me. My Abba loves me. Crazy!

COLOMBIA!

I am currently in Colombia! It has been so amazing! I am not gonna post details on here.... but there are a lot of details about what we have been doing on corbancolombia.blogspot.com. Check it out! :)

halfway there!

Since everyone else seems to be blogging about the end of the school year, I figured I would follow suit :) I am absolutely and extremely excited to be done with the year! This year involved a lot of drama that I can now say I am finally free from!!!! I am so happy about that! It is really scary that we are halfway done with college, but it is also really exciting! I am not sorry to see this year go and I am very excited for summer and next year! :) On Tuesday, I leave for Colombia for 2 weeks and then I get to go home after that! YAYYYYY! I can't wait to be home!

sun. shorts. friends.

This weekend has been on of the best all year! On Saturday, a BUNCH of us lay out in front of one of the dorms and tanned/did homework/hung out. It was so great! It started with about four of us and slowly grew and grew until there was about 15 of us. It was SO much fun to hang out with all my friends, in the sun no less! Saturday was the first day I have worn shorts since summer! AMAZING! :) I did not want that day to end!
Saturday night, six of us girls jumped in cars and drove to Newberg where one of our friends lives. We watched movies that night and relaxed. Sunday morning we went to church. Then we headed up to Portland to the Saturday Market. Such a fun place! I bought a couple of nifty items which make me happy! Then we drove back to Newberg where we all jumped on a bed and napped/cuddled :) Then Heather's mom cooked us a DELICIOUS Easter meal! It was SO good! Then we packed up and drove back to Salem! When we got back, we played cards, talked, and watched another movie! Finally at 3:00 I managed to get to bed :)
Today is a day off for us because of Easter so I have been relaxing :) Seriously though.... this weekend has been so awesome! YAY SUMMER WEATHER!! (which btw only lasted one day. Its now raining/hailing. Whatever, its Oregon :) )

i hate cancer.

Two days ago, one of my NZ friends who I had grown up with went home to be with God after suffering from brain cancer. She only found out about it recently (as in a few weeks ago) and it got really bad really fast. I am glad that she isn't in pain anymore, but she was SO young! The same age as me! I am realizing that God's plans really are FAR from my own. And apparently He has more surprises up His sleeve than I expected. Its really hard to look at class pictures of us as kids and realize that Anna is no longer on earth. You expect that sort of thing once you get to be older, but we are not even 20 yet. Gahh. Its so hard to accept and I am not really okay with it, but I know that eventually God will reveal the reason for taking Anna so young.

SPRING BREAKKKKK!

Spring break so far has been absolutely amazing! I flew in on Friday and just spent the day relaxing. Saturday, I went fabric shopping with my mom. After being inspired by the plethora of fabrics, I went home and made a bag! It was so much fun! :) On Sunday, I went to church and then after church I went out to Disneyland to spend time with my cousin, his wife, and three kids who live in Colorado. The last time I saw the kids was 7 years ago and the kids were 4 and 6. Now they are 11 and 13! We had so much fun! To add to the fun, it was absolutely POURING!!! We got drenched! But it was great! On Monday I went back out for the afternoon and spent more time with them. I adore those kids! They are so funny and entertaining! The twins clung to me for most of the day, it was very cute! Yesterday (Tuesday), they all came over for lunch and ended up staying till almost 9 :) The kids and I spent the day playing spoons, hula hooping, playing tennis, going to the park, telling jokes, and leg wrestling. Dustin (the boy twin) talks CONSTANTLY. He is really funny but he never shuts up! But he was very quiet when the adults were around which was interesting! Jordan (the girl twin) was so precious and enjoyed relaxing. Clark (the oldest) was so funny. He has the cutest smile and thinks he is SO cool because he is a teenager. Hahaa. Yesterday was wonderful! So much fun!
In between all this, I have determined to finish Jane Eyre. So I have been spending most of my free time reading. :) It has been so great!
OH! I have also had a couple of first time experiences in the past few days. I ate a turkey leg at California Adventure! And I also laughed while drinking Sprite and had it come out my nose! :)
So thats my wonderful spring break so far :)