tiredness

This is a scatter brain post so I will split it up into "paragraphs".Last week was extremely sleepless for me! So last night all I wanted to do was sleep! But I didnt feel like sleeping so i stayed up until 10:30. Not too late but later than expected considering I was half asleep at 8:00. i got up this morning and went to church and during part of it i fell asleep!! Not good. I'm not tired when I am busy but as soon as I am not moving I fall asleep! It sucks.

So I have to decide if I want to do another mission trip this week. It's in Compton and I really wanna do it so that I can hang out with my friends but I am so tired and all I want to do is stay at home. But I know the people want me so I dont know what im gonna do.

I have my first driving lesson on Tuesday! Yipee! Im excited! I had a bad dream about it last night though! =[

So one day during this past week......i was sitting outside with one of the guys on the trip. This is our convo [not exact words]
Ben: So are you excited about going home?
Me: Uhhh....Not really.
Ben: Why?? Aren't you excited to see your mom??
Me: Yeah I guess but I hate going home to the apartment...It just doesnt feel like home
Ben: What....you dont like America?
Me: No i do like it but I just miss my friends in NZ.
Ben: Well there must be something wrong with being here if you dont wanna go home!
Me: I dont know. I just hate going home. Id rather stay here

Okay so I was thinking about this convo and im like.......he is right...there must be something wrong. I finally figured out what it is. I love having people "my age" around. When I come home its just my parents. I really enjoyed this week because of the people I was around. I can talk to them about anything and I miss that when I'm here!! So yeah. Thats all for now.