walkin the talk

SO.... If you read my blog, you will know that at camp I made the decision to give up all aspects of my life to God and let His will be done in it. Well that decision really got tested this week! I tried out for the tennis team and on tuesday night and wednesday, I was praying that I would make it, then I realized that God might not want me on the team. So my prayers changed. It was really hard to tell God that I would be happy no matter what the outcome was going to be. I didn't make the team and I was pretty bummed when I left the locker room. Deep down I was really disappointed and mad and all that stuff, but as I drove home, I realized that there is probably a/some very good reason/s that God didn't want me on the team. I am gonna be so busy with El Salvador meetings and AP Gov homework/all my other homework, that I really did not need to have 2 more hours of my day taken away. The other thing that tennis would have done, was stop me from going to youth group and kids club. That was something that was gonna be hard. Those are the things that I look forward to in the week and to have that gone would suck. I really wanted to make the tennis team, I reached the point where I really found, playing tennis, relaxing! It would have been amazing! But I did give it up to God and he showed me very clearly what he wanted done. God gives and He takes away but His will is ALWAYS best. It was really encouraging to go through with my "commitment" and see, so clearly, what God's will for that situation was.