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AHHHHHH! I totally just spent like 3 freakinn hours on the dumb AP Gov review guide. Oh well, its done! :]

So I have been wanting to post since like monday. So now everything is gonna come out.

It's definitely cliche but lately, everything in my life has been screaming "Life is too short". I watch One Tree Hill and two episodes ago, the star player on the basketball team, Q, walked into a gas station and the "attendant" just stood there staring at him. Then Q glanced over to the bak of the store, and there was a dead man lying on the ground, covered in blood. Q turned around to walk out, and as he did, the "attendant" pulled out a gun and shot him. He was 17, he had his whole life ahead of him, but because he was in the wrong place, at the wrong time, he got killed. Yeah I know it is only a TV show, but stuff like that does happen. In school shootings like Columbine, or in gang-related shootings. It happens. So then last night at youth group, the main point of the lesson was about salvation, because we had some new people. My youth pastor said something along the lives of, we think we might have our whole lives ahead of us and that we can accept Christ when we are old and are done having fun, but we don't know how much time we have. That really got to me, not the accepting Christ part, but the fact that I could die tomorrow. Then this morning in chapel, Miss Admiraal talked about perception and reality, and that what people see us as should be the real us. My conclusion: I don't know if I am going to wake up tomorrow so I need to make sure that people get to know the real me, the me that loves God and has dedicated her life to God, and not someone who is a Christian by name only. My life is in God's hands, whatever happens, happens. I want to live for Him and make it obvious to everyone that I have put all of my trust in Him.

One of my friends is my main role model at the moment. Her family moved to the U.S 2 (?) years ago and right now, she does not have a visa and is here illegally. Her parents haven't applied for another one. I would expect her to freak out and be extremely concerned about leaving, I know I would. But she trusts God 100%. She told me that she doesn't want to go back because God has/and is doing amazing things in her life and she doesn't want to leave that. But she knows that God's will might be for her to go back and spread the Gospel in her home-country. She is truly willing to go wherever He wants to take her. The thing that encourages me the most is that she has only been a Christian for a little over a year but her faith is so strong. I look up to her and pray that I can have faith like her and live the rest of my life, however long or short, for Christ like she has.