i suck at posting.

yes its true.

so let me talk about my life since my last post.

i spent 2 amazing weeks in New Zealand. i got to see my best friends, a TON of family, and be at Teaarani's weeding. the two weeks flew past and i didnt want to leave. shocking, right? haha. i was able to spend a lot of time with Claudia which was awesome. Teds' marriage is gonna be tough on Claud so i was so happy i could be there for a little while. i was able to meet a lot of family that i havent really met before. i guess i have but only at a young age. one of my family members, Tiritaa, and i hit it off great! she sat next to me and aunty at the reception (for the wedding) and we pretty much just laughed the whole time! it was so awesome! i also got to meet my youngest 2nd cousin, Danielle! she is so precious! i love her! :) so yeah, my trip overall was absolutely AMAZING!

i got home on tuesday. on friday, two of my college friends, Sage and Katelyn, came to see me! we went to the beach, went to BJs, went swimming, shopping, ate in n out and yogurtland, and just hung out for 4 days. it was awesome! they are amazing friends and it was pretty cool to have them here. i definitely did not expect to see any of my college friends this summer. thankfully, Katelyn was willing to make the 14 hour drive to see me :)

another highlight of the past couple of weeks is that i found my childhood lover on facebook! i had the biggest crush on him for a LONG time! he was from here but living in NZ. i was devastated when he left. hahaa. anyway, we went to the same church while they were there. anddddd i am going to marry him someday. he even told his mom that when we were younger. haha. i was just very happy to find him and see that he is still as attractive, if not more, than back in the day! :)

on a more serious note, i had an interview to be a counselor at the ranch later this summer. not being stuck up or anything, but i knew that i could bomb the interview and still be a counselor. they like me. hahaa. but one of the questions was "what has college taught you?". my initial vocal response: "ummmm." my initial mental response: "how the heck do you expect me to explain what college has taught me? it has taught me too much to tell you here! how do i choose what to say? AHHH!" well i didnt quite say what i thought was most important. i said something about God. yes, college has taught me a lot about God and my faith. but it has also helped me become me. i am so much more confident in who i am after a year of college. i know who i am and i am not ashamed of that. to begin with, i thought that was a bad answer because it was not "Godly". but after thinking about it, i have realized that that is a great answer! being confident in who i am is something that God would be proud of. He made me, He loves me how i am, and i have finally realized that i should be happy with who i am. so now i can say that i am content with myself. yes i want to become a better person and the person that God wants me to become, but for now, i am who He made me to be, i am becoming who He wants me to be, and im okay with that.

well thats my life in a nutshell, or a blog.