Today, I drove one of my hallmates to the Portland Airport. The last time I drove to the airport was when my mom left a few weeks ago. I love the drive back! I get to sing at the top of my lungs, think, and just be alone for an hour. I am someone who has always liked spending time with myself and just thinking. I have to admit, it was pretty hard to stay awake today.... but I made it! :)
Anyway, that was rather irrelevant but I thought I would express my enjoyment of driving from Portlan to Salem.
Yesterday, Thursday, was a surprisingly good day. I say surprisingly because Thursdays are not my good days. I have a 9:00 and 10:30 class, which gets out at 11:20. I have a physical science lab from 12-2:50. And I have a night class from 6-7:30. Not fun. BUT, yeterday was rather good. My lab was hard and annoying, but it felt so good to get it done. After dinner, I was able to see my Australian friend who was staying here last week. She just makes me laugh! My roommate and a friend perfromed at open mic night which was so good! :) Other little things happened too that just added to the positiveness of the day.
Let me just say, I am SO glad that I am only one class away from the weekend! I cannot wait to sleep and relax. Although, I do have a considerable amount of homework to do. But I will ignore that right now :)
One other thing that have come to realize is that I am much better at expressing my feelings through writing than I am through speaking. I guess I have always known that, but I have been noticing it more recently. I have a problem expressing through my words. I don't like that, but I am glad that I can at least write out my feelings/thoughts :)
Have a wonderful weekend!
Friday, September 17, 2010
Friday, September 10, 2010
finally!!!
so finally something exciting has happened here! :)
but first... let me tell you that the beginning of this week was the crappiest few days ever. i got a cold, drama arose, i was homesick. life sucked. BUUUUT things got better yesterday :)
last night was our first night of hall Bible study. we are doing testimonies this semester so last night it was my room's turn. my RA gave her testimony, my roommate gave hers, then i gave mine. i totally expected to talk for like 5 minutes. nope... i talked for 20 minutes. not expected at all! but it was really good! after Bible study, i met a girl who is staying with one of my hallmates. her name is annie and she is from australia! talking to her was so good! i felt so comfortable with her around. it was fun talking about stuff that no one else had knowledge of. like food and words and stuff. so after that, six of us jumped in a car and went to mcdonalds. it was like 10:45 when we left. we got to mcdonalds, went inside, and saw that they have a deal going.... 50 chicken nuggets for $10. so cheap! well two of the girls decided to get it. WOAH! 50 chicken nuggets is a LOT! so we came back to the dorm, plopped down in our hall, and pigged out on chicken nuggets :) we sat there until 12:30 eating, talking about camp, talking about boys, talking about a lot of stuff. it was such great hall bonding! i loved it! :)
life is improving :)
but first... let me tell you that the beginning of this week was the crappiest few days ever. i got a cold, drama arose, i was homesick. life sucked. BUUUUT things got better yesterday :)
last night was our first night of hall Bible study. we are doing testimonies this semester so last night it was my room's turn. my RA gave her testimony, my roommate gave hers, then i gave mine. i totally expected to talk for like 5 minutes. nope... i talked for 20 minutes. not expected at all! but it was really good! after Bible study, i met a girl who is staying with one of my hallmates. her name is annie and she is from australia! talking to her was so good! i felt so comfortable with her around. it was fun talking about stuff that no one else had knowledge of. like food and words and stuff. so after that, six of us jumped in a car and went to mcdonalds. it was like 10:45 when we left. we got to mcdonalds, went inside, and saw that they have a deal going.... 50 chicken nuggets for $10. so cheap! well two of the girls decided to get it. WOAH! 50 chicken nuggets is a LOT! so we came back to the dorm, plopped down in our hall, and pigged out on chicken nuggets :) we sat there until 12:30 eating, talking about camp, talking about boys, talking about a lot of stuff. it was such great hall bonding! i loved it! :)
life is improving :)
Monday, August 30, 2010
sophomore year!
okay well let me start by saying that i am blogging because facebook is being retarded and not letting me get on. annnnd i have no one to hang out with. so i guess you could say that im lonely. but im not lonely in a bad way.... just lonely. anyyyway.
my mommy left today. it was sad. but its okay.
right now.... i dont really wanna be here. i mean i love it and all... but i am kinda thinking about my friendships and stuff... and i just dont feel content. its hard to say that, because i know im "stuck" here. and i also know that God wants me here... well thats what i think He wants. i guess i just feel like the friendships that i have in california are more important and more meaningful to me. i guess i will get over this! im probably just homesick. i know ill be fine, im a big girl! haha
on a much happier note... on the way to the airport today, my mom and i stopped to see some family. im so glad we did! i have met these people before, but i didnt feel comfortable going there by myself. but now i am okay with it! i think i might go babysit one weekend for them which i think would be so much fun! the kids are great! the oldest is a girl who is 15, then there are 2 boys aged 13 and 10 i think. they are so great! :) it made my day seeing them!
thats all for now.... ill post when something significant happens. haha :)
my mommy left today. it was sad. but its okay.
right now.... i dont really wanna be here. i mean i love it and all... but i am kinda thinking about my friendships and stuff... and i just dont feel content. its hard to say that, because i know im "stuck" here. and i also know that God wants me here... well thats what i think He wants. i guess i just feel like the friendships that i have in california are more important and more meaningful to me. i guess i will get over this! im probably just homesick. i know ill be fine, im a big girl! haha
on a much happier note... on the way to the airport today, my mom and i stopped to see some family. im so glad we did! i have met these people before, but i didnt feel comfortable going there by myself. but now i am okay with it! i think i might go babysit one weekend for them which i think would be so much fun! the kids are great! the oldest is a girl who is 15, then there are 2 boys aged 13 and 10 i think. they are so great! :) it made my day seeing them!
thats all for now.... ill post when something significant happens. haha :)
Friday, August 20, 2010
just a thought
i dont know if im the only one that experiences this or not. but i am assuming im not alone.
i have met a few people in my life who remind me of someone else. and its almost like i have an instant connection with them. its weird. for example, my uncle in austria reminded me A LOT of my aunt who i am ridiculously close to. so even though i had just met him, i felt like we were super close. yah thats a still in my family, but its happened with people who i am not related to as well. and thinking about it, if i feel the connection because the person reminds me of someone else i know, then they probably dont feel the same connection unless i remind them of someone they know. which is unlikely but possible.
i dont know.
ive just been thinking about that.
weird.
i have met a few people in my life who remind me of someone else. and its almost like i have an instant connection with them. its weird. for example, my uncle in austria reminded me A LOT of my aunt who i am ridiculously close to. so even though i had just met him, i felt like we were super close. yah thats a still in my family, but its happened with people who i am not related to as well. and thinking about it, if i feel the connection because the person reminds me of someone else i know, then they probably dont feel the same connection unless i remind them of someone they know. which is unlikely but possible.
i dont know.
ive just been thinking about that.
weird.
Monday, August 16, 2010
booored
okay so i am sitting here. recovering from having my 5 wisdom teeth removed. yes, i did have 5. apparently its hereditary because my dad also had 5. weird! but anyway... i have nothing to do, so im gonna blog :)
1st thing: being put to sleep with anesthetic.... LOVED it! i thought it was great! hahaa.
2nd thing: ya know when God just repeatedly throws Bible verses and situations in your face... kinda like he wants you to learn something? well thats me right now. there are 2 things: rely on His strength... not my own. and i need to choose between God and the world, i cant be devoted to both.
the second is hardest for me. that means giving up music.... which i am slowly working on. it has never been so clear to me as it is now that i can not be in both "camps". the Bible says it bluntly in James 4:4. it says that anyone who is a friend of the world is an enemy of God. oh snap! haha. that was in a sunday school lesson i taught two weeks ago. wow. it was aimed at me! God is so good at doing that.
so yeah... thats where i am at.
life is good! im happy. and i love God! :)
1st thing: being put to sleep with anesthetic.... LOVED it! i thought it was great! hahaa.
2nd thing: ya know when God just repeatedly throws Bible verses and situations in your face... kinda like he wants you to learn something? well thats me right now. there are 2 things: rely on His strength... not my own. and i need to choose between God and the world, i cant be devoted to both.
the second is hardest for me. that means giving up music.... which i am slowly working on. it has never been so clear to me as it is now that i can not be in both "camps". the Bible says it bluntly in James 4:4. it says that anyone who is a friend of the world is an enemy of God. oh snap! haha. that was in a sunday school lesson i taught two weeks ago. wow. it was aimed at me! God is so good at doing that.
so yeah... thats where i am at.
life is good! im happy. and i love God! :)
Saturday, August 7, 2010
its been a while
wow i have failed at blogging! haha
so much has happened since my last post! i have been crazy busy!
i will only speak briefly about the things prior to this week because this week was a highlight.
aleisha spent 3 weeks with me. we did so much stuff! all the touristy stuff. it was so much fun!
once leish left, i had VBS at church. that was good. i got to hang out with one of my good friends so it made me happy!
the week after that i was counseling at junior 1 camp. i had a cabin of 8 girls around the age of 10 and i also had a co-counselor. it was exhausting (or so i thought at the time) but so much fun! after that, i had 24 hours to recover and i had to go back to camp to counsel teen camp.
so that brings me to teen camp (this past week). WOW! i thought jr 1 was tiring... this week i had 11 middle school girls all by myself. crazy. i was doing fine until thursday. all of thursday i had a heavy heart. i didnt know why. i got ready for chapel that night and went down early. i ran to one of my friends and started crying my eyes out. i couldnt hold it in. i didnt want to be with my campers at all. so i cried then we went to chapel. someone asked me if i was okay and i started crying again. so i went outside with the same friend that i cried to earlier. as we were sitting there, Francine, the recreation director, came up and asked what was going on. i told her i was sick of it all and just felt off. the first thing she asked me was "have you been in the Word?". oh snap. i had only read my Bible once that week. i kept forgetting. i sat with francine and she talked to me, and explained that i can not do things on my own. i needed to "tap into the power source" aka God. once i realized that i was much better. a lot of other stuff happened but being broken down like that really got my attention. God worked in amazing ways this week and all my girls told me that they felt closer to God than before they came. so overall, the week was amazing. i met some great people who i know will be a part of my life for a long time.
life is good. God is amazing.
so much has happened since my last post! i have been crazy busy!
i will only speak briefly about the things prior to this week because this week was a highlight.
aleisha spent 3 weeks with me. we did so much stuff! all the touristy stuff. it was so much fun!
once leish left, i had VBS at church. that was good. i got to hang out with one of my good friends so it made me happy!
the week after that i was counseling at junior 1 camp. i had a cabin of 8 girls around the age of 10 and i also had a co-counselor. it was exhausting (or so i thought at the time) but so much fun! after that, i had 24 hours to recover and i had to go back to camp to counsel teen camp.
so that brings me to teen camp (this past week). WOW! i thought jr 1 was tiring... this week i had 11 middle school girls all by myself. crazy. i was doing fine until thursday. all of thursday i had a heavy heart. i didnt know why. i got ready for chapel that night and went down early. i ran to one of my friends and started crying my eyes out. i couldnt hold it in. i didnt want to be with my campers at all. so i cried then we went to chapel. someone asked me if i was okay and i started crying again. so i went outside with the same friend that i cried to earlier. as we were sitting there, Francine, the recreation director, came up and asked what was going on. i told her i was sick of it all and just felt off. the first thing she asked me was "have you been in the Word?". oh snap. i had only read my Bible once that week. i kept forgetting. i sat with francine and she talked to me, and explained that i can not do things on my own. i needed to "tap into the power source" aka God. once i realized that i was much better. a lot of other stuff happened but being broken down like that really got my attention. God worked in amazing ways this week and all my girls told me that they felt closer to God than before they came. so overall, the week was amazing. i met some great people who i know will be a part of my life for a long time.
life is good. God is amazing.
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
i suck at posting.
yes its true.
so let me talk about my life since my last post.
i spent 2 amazing weeks in New Zealand. i got to see my best friends, a TON of family, and be at Teaarani's weeding. the two weeks flew past and i didnt want to leave. shocking, right? haha. i was able to spend a lot of time with Claudia which was awesome. Teds' marriage is gonna be tough on Claud so i was so happy i could be there for a little while. i was able to meet a lot of family that i havent really met before. i guess i have but only at a young age. one of my family members, Tiritaa, and i hit it off great! she sat next to me and aunty at the reception (for the wedding) and we pretty much just laughed the whole time! it was so awesome! i also got to meet my youngest 2nd cousin, Danielle! she is so precious! i love her! :) so yeah, my trip overall was absolutely AMAZING!
i got home on tuesday. on friday, two of my college friends, Sage and Katelyn, came to see me! we went to the beach, went to BJs, went swimming, shopping, ate in n out and yogurtland, and just hung out for 4 days. it was awesome! they are amazing friends and it was pretty cool to have them here. i definitely did not expect to see any of my college friends this summer. thankfully, Katelyn was willing to make the 14 hour drive to see me :)
another highlight of the past couple of weeks is that i found my childhood lover on facebook! i had the biggest crush on him for a LONG time! he was from here but living in NZ. i was devastated when he left. hahaa. anyway, we went to the same church while they were there. anddddd i am going to marry him someday. he even told his mom that when we were younger. haha. i was just very happy to find him and see that he is still as attractive, if not more, than back in the day! :)
on a more serious note, i had an interview to be a counselor at the ranch later this summer. not being stuck up or anything, but i knew that i could bomb the interview and still be a counselor. they like me. hahaa. but one of the questions was "what has college taught you?". my initial vocal response: "ummmm." my initial mental response: "how the heck do you expect me to explain what college has taught me? it has taught me too much to tell you here! how do i choose what to say? AHHH!" well i didnt quite say what i thought was most important. i said something about God. yes, college has taught me a lot about God and my faith. but it has also helped me become me. i am so much more confident in who i am after a year of college. i know who i am and i am not ashamed of that. to begin with, i thought that was a bad answer because it was not "Godly". but after thinking about it, i have realized that that is a great answer! being confident in who i am is something that God would be proud of. He made me, He loves me how i am, and i have finally realized that i should be happy with who i am. so now i can say that i am content with myself. yes i want to become a better person and the person that God wants me to become, but for now, i am who He made me to be, i am becoming who He wants me to be, and im okay with that.
well thats my life in a nutshell, or a blog.
so let me talk about my life since my last post.
i spent 2 amazing weeks in New Zealand. i got to see my best friends, a TON of family, and be at Teaarani's weeding. the two weeks flew past and i didnt want to leave. shocking, right? haha. i was able to spend a lot of time with Claudia which was awesome. Teds' marriage is gonna be tough on Claud so i was so happy i could be there for a little while. i was able to meet a lot of family that i havent really met before. i guess i have but only at a young age. one of my family members, Tiritaa, and i hit it off great! she sat next to me and aunty at the reception (for the wedding) and we pretty much just laughed the whole time! it was so awesome! i also got to meet my youngest 2nd cousin, Danielle! she is so precious! i love her! :) so yeah, my trip overall was absolutely AMAZING!
i got home on tuesday. on friday, two of my college friends, Sage and Katelyn, came to see me! we went to the beach, went to BJs, went swimming, shopping, ate in n out and yogurtland, and just hung out for 4 days. it was awesome! they are amazing friends and it was pretty cool to have them here. i definitely did not expect to see any of my college friends this summer. thankfully, Katelyn was willing to make the 14 hour drive to see me :)
another highlight of the past couple of weeks is that i found my childhood lover on facebook! i had the biggest crush on him for a LONG time! he was from here but living in NZ. i was devastated when he left. hahaa. anyway, we went to the same church while they were there. anddddd i am going to marry him someday. he even told his mom that when we were younger. haha. i was just very happy to find him and see that he is still as attractive, if not more, than back in the day! :)
on a more serious note, i had an interview to be a counselor at the ranch later this summer. not being stuck up or anything, but i knew that i could bomb the interview and still be a counselor. they like me. hahaa. but one of the questions was "what has college taught you?". my initial vocal response: "ummmm." my initial mental response: "how the heck do you expect me to explain what college has taught me? it has taught me too much to tell you here! how do i choose what to say? AHHH!" well i didnt quite say what i thought was most important. i said something about God. yes, college has taught me a lot about God and my faith. but it has also helped me become me. i am so much more confident in who i am after a year of college. i know who i am and i am not ashamed of that. to begin with, i thought that was a bad answer because it was not "Godly". but after thinking about it, i have realized that that is a great answer! being confident in who i am is something that God would be proud of. He made me, He loves me how i am, and i have finally realized that i should be happy with who i am. so now i can say that i am content with myself. yes i want to become a better person and the person that God wants me to become, but for now, i am who He made me to be, i am becoming who He wants me to be, and im okay with that.
well thats my life in a nutshell, or a blog.
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